On Staying Passionate About Your Passion

When I was a little girl, I was somewhere between confident and insecure, about the same as I am now.  I would always have wonderful ideas and want to express them, but the insecure part of me always hushed my ideas to the side. But the way I could always confidently express and understand myself was through characters in books.

English class had always been my favorite. When I started scoring 5s on the reading and writing part of my standardized tests, my parents took notice of my book obsession. I would always finish school-assigned books the night they were given out, and I’d pretend I was on the same pace as everyone else in the class. Books were my outlet of escape from the real world: from my parent’s divorce, my broken home, my poor outlook on myself. I could open a book and get away from it all.

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And then one day I picked up a pen. And I started writing stories myself, and well, all hell broke loose. Instead of finding comfort in fictional characters created by others. I could create my own. It was almost euphoric the first time I created my first fictional character. She was a girl, who felt lost.

Since my discovery of love for literature at the tender age of seven years old, I have become an adult. I graduated college, moved into a home in the city of New York, and I have taken on full adult responsibilities that don’t always include being able to read for four hours at a time, or just sit down to write a short essay on why I believe men and women are the same.

“I have to work to pay bills and work to do so that I can afford the little luxuries of life, like wifi, and fresh juice from the bodega. However, I notice when I neglect my free therapy, aka reading a book, or just writing for no reason, it seems as though something is missing.”

I have to work to pay bills and work to do so that I can afford the little luxuries of life, like wifi, and fresh juice from the bodega. However, I notice when I neglect my free therapy, aka reading a book, or just writing for no reason, it seems as though something is missing. I feel like I’m going through the motions. And that is something I just refuse to do. I saw my grandparents do it, I saw my parents do it, and I will not. I will not let the stresses of everyday life keep me from doing the one thing that makes me sane. Many of us are creatives in the world of fashion, music, content, technology, radio, television, and film. Some people may not quite understand your dreams or career and may call it a silly dream, but it is not. In fact, if it makes you genuinely happy, it is not a silly dream, it is an important passion. Some people would kill to have a healthy creative outlet and if you do, you’re special. Continue on your process; people like me understand, and we’re rooting for you.

“Some people would kill to have a healthy creative outlet and if you do, you’re special. Continue on your process; people like me understand, and we’re rooting for you.”

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One of my favorite authors Roxane Gay wrote a very important piece of literature called, “Bad Feminist.” The book is composed of short essays that talk about everything from her time at Fat Camp to how she feels on misogyny and the modern-day patriarchy. In one of my favorite excerpts from the book,  she writes “I embrace the label of bad feminist because I am human. I am messy. I’m not trying to be an example. I am not trying to be perfect. I am not trying to say I have all the answers. I am not trying to say I’m right. I am just trying—trying to support what I believe in, trying to do some good in this world, trying to make some noise with my writing while also being myself.”  

“I embrace the label of bad feminist because I am human. I am messy. I’m not trying to be an example. I am not trying to be perfect. I am not trying to say I have all the answers. I am not trying to say I’m right. I am just trying—trying to support what I believe in, trying to do some good in this world, trying to make some noise with my writing while also being myself.” -Roxane Gay

Self expression is simply being the purest form of yourself. If something allows you to be that, then do it. Ultra Regular is for people who need an outlet, who are looking for a place to creative, and somewhere simply to be yourself.